The reason that I haven't posted anything in about a month is because there has been absolutely nothing to post. We literally heard nothing from our adoption agency for over two weeks and when we did finally hear something it was profiles of kids that did not match our 2 kids/0-8 years old range. I am not going to lie, this past month has been truly a test of faith; especially with Mother's Day falling in the right in the middle of it.
I am so grateful to have such an amazing husband and supportive friends that were with me during my times of doubt. More than ever I struggled with knowing if God was closing the door on adoption for us, telling us that we were to go in a different direction or was putting us through a trial of trust.
What truly allowed me to get through this time was a simple statement from a wonderful friend on a rough day... "Sometimes we just need to embrace our sufferings." I realized that I was fighting my struggles and continually letting them win. When she said this statement I realized that sometimes I just have to stop and let God take me through whatever trials he needs in order to be prepared for what he has planned.
My trials have not ended, but God has definitely begun to open doors. We have received more profiles that match us in the past 5 days than we have in the entire past 2 months. We currently have asked for our home study to be submitted for 5 separate sets of siblings. It is now all in God's hands and we only pray that he continues to open/close doors to guide us in the direction he has planned for us.
"...rejoice in our sufferings because we know that suffering produces perservance; perserverance, character; and character- hope." Romans 5:3
